But,I have a indistinctly artificial feeling always,it makes me constrained,so I cannot free my taciturn,my melancholy,my lonely and a little bit of cheerfulness.

• 可是总有一种隐隐的不自然感，使我无法肆意，挥洒我的沉默，我的抑郁，我的孤独和一些小小的快乐。