However, stealthily, I still looked forward to get your blessing in the endless maze, however I am afraid of perhaps I am fundamentally unworthy of your bounty.

• 我常常表面上假装疯狂地生活，可是暗地里却在不断的迷惘中期望得到你的赐福，然而我又害怕我也许根本不配接受你的恩赐。